Nosey Rosey

So that would be me...Nosey Rosey. I briefly posted about my marriage issues throughout the 5 years of my marriage. Ive always been kind of snoopy on Matts computer. He knows this. The first couple of years it was pretty bad. But i was finding stuff that really upset me so it gave me reason to keep checking up on him. I would tell him everytime i found something. Im not a very confontrational person...but in this case I was. Well we were doing better I guess. Or i just gave up looking...whichever you want to call it. I still had concerns he was still talking to people online and looking at pornography...which is where this blog is headed. He started deleting all of his history and such, so I couldnt find anything. I stopped looking for a long while. Well recently with our current divorce situation and all of that, i decided to look again. I found out he is back to looking at pornography or he never stopped and i just havent seen it. He does it before work while Im asleep and when Im not home. Thats been the most times ive seen it, when im not home. Ive had several doctors appointments recently where he has been home during the day from work, watching the boys and thats when hes online looking at porn. I dont know how to feel about that. Part of me cares, and part of me doesnt. The part that cares, is really only caring because he is looking at naked women while our boys are around and bc we are still married. He knows how i feel about it. Im definitely not a prude, I just think there is a time and a place for everything including porn. I havent said anything to him about it yet. Dont know if I will. And that brings me to the part of me that doesnt care. I dont know if i even care enough to say anything about it. I feel like it wont do any good except make him more aware that im checking up on him and he'll hide it better. My feelings are worn out and running thin. Its almost a giving up point again. I know a lot of people will disagree with my checking up but thats not a debate i want to make. It is what it is and I just need to figure out what I want to do with it.